Thursday, June 30, 2005

Keeping secrets

Sometimes I wonder if other people keep the sort of secrets that I keep. I have things about myself that I really wish I could share with others, but I just dont think it's a good idea. I dont want these secrets to come back and haunt me or anyone else to get hurt as a result of my secrets. It's weird. Lately, I've been feeling the urge to confide in others, but I think about it and I dont even see the benefit to myself. Basically, I dont have enough trust in people to let some of these secrets out. So, I understand when others dont tell. I "get" it.

I must admit, there is one secret that I have shared with a handful of people, but that's not such a big deal. But there are others, that I just keep to myself.

Now, remember all secrets are not bad. Some are good. I have a really good one, but there is no appropriate audience. There is no way to spill this one. Too many haters in the world these days. So, I keep so much to myself, even though on some days I'm bursting to tell and others I feel shame. I often wonder if I am alone in the things that I keep to myself. Somehow I doubt it.
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

i *heart* summer...

So, I hear some people hate summer. That’s so sad. I love summer. I cherish summer. I can hardly wait for summer to start. Around here there's clear blue skies, warm temperatures, not too hot and not humid. You know, the sort of days that can just perk up your mood. And never, ever, ever, ever, ever those freaky mid-day-from-out-of-nowhere-get-your-ass-out-of-the-pool-picnic-ruining-thunderstorms. I love summer clothes: shorts, sandals, tank tops, capris all that stuff…everything about summer is simply wonderful!

It must suck to get bitch slapped by all that humidity for everyone else. So sad.

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Little League is back in effect..

What?! What's that you say? Yes, Little League is back in effect in a big m'fuckin' way! My son. Yes, My son, Elias was voted to All Stars! Not only was he voted, but it was unnanimous. Not only was it unnanimous. He was bummped from Minors to the fricken' MAJORS! YEAH! BABY! I was nearly in tears when I found out. I am so proud of Elias.

He works so hard for everything that he excels in--reading, math and now baseball. I am so honored to be his mother. He has no idea, how honored I am. I know with him, the level of making us proud will go up a notch, but I am relishing THIS moment--right her, right now. (Ok, yea, I meant to post this a week ago--whatever, dude. Whatever!) I watched him play in a scrimmage game tonight, and he was quite spectacular. The ball moves faster, and he has to get used to that, espcially since being hurt in his last game with the minors. He needs to get over it and move on. Injury is a part of sport.

The little boy that used to jump from the arms of my ragedy assed couch shouting "To infinity and beyond!" is in the freaking Little League All Stars MAJORS!!!

I can not find the words to express how proud I am of my son.

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

Happy 34th Birthday...

...Tupac.

R.I.P.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

What the hell is wrong with Tom Cruise and who the hell is Katie Holmes?

Tell me you're aware this is an obvious and not very well acted media hoax. Does anyone else see right through this Tom Cruise / Katie Holmes farse or is it just me? I mean, I believed the Wendy's Chili finger scam longer than I believed this crap. Anna Ayala is clearly a much better actor than Tom or Katie. Tom is doing a horrible acting job ON PURPOSE and behaving as though he's off his meds. And I don't even know who Katie Holmes is. I mean, I know who she is, but I haven't followed her career and could not name anything she's been in. I'm clearly not that interested in her.

As you can see, in this awkward picture, her body language is saying, in vibrant colors, no less, "I'm skeeeeeeeved. I'm skeeeeeeeved! Help me"! I'll betcha didn't know this little tidbit. He's saying to her through his clenched teeth: "Just kiss me this one last time and make it look passionate, bitch." Do you notice Tom coming in for the kiss and Katie pulling away? Oh, it's subtle, but it's there. When you are as in love as they both profess to be, there's no pulling back. SHE should be humping HIS leg. But no, that's not happening here. This is kinda like the Michael Jackon - Lisa Marie kiss on the MTV VMAs years ago. Ecck!

Why is he jumping around like idiot monkey-man everytime I see him being interviewed? Why is he gushing about this kid he's dating, but has never done so before with his other relationships. "Oh we're just sooooo << squeek >> happy together! I've never loved someone this much in my life and we're going to spend the rest of our lives together. << squeek >> Oh joy!" Oh someone poke my fuckin' eyes out with a pair of pick up stix and put firecrackers in my ears-NOW!! I can't stand this. Tom is kinda skeevin' me out with this false heap of crap he's throwing at us and at times, I think Katie is skeeved too.

In the past, Tom has always been so private about his personal life. His acting is so poor, trying to convince all of us he has found the "love of his life" in Katie. He's so over the top. It's obvious "his people" and "her people" got together and said "Let's cause a stir with this unexpected Hollywood romance and all the lemmings will go and see their movies this summer. It worked with Ashton and Demi." Let the record reflect that I am not buying it and I'm not planning on seeing either of their movies this summer (which I shall not name, 'cause I don't want you to see them either). I don't think Tom Cruise wants us to believe this romace-thing either.

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Monday, June 13, 2005

School is FINALLY out!

Today was the first day of no school for the kids. I think I may be happier than the kids. There’s no more homework. No more science projects. No more lunch money. No more stupid lunch people that forget to feed your child due to their own idiot mistake. No more being out of the house at a certain time. There’s no agenda-just us hanging out: playing video games, playing basketball in the back, making tents, sitting on the patio, sneaking and watching Family Guy on Adult Swim. Shhhh! Don’t tell my husband. I just love it. The boys can hang out with me later at night, because my husband’s office is in our house, so they don’t have to leave until my husband leaves in the morning or afternoon. We are overjoyed that school is out. I think we enjoy it more than the kids do. I’m sure of it.

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

..the end Little League

Today my oldest son, Elias' team lost their second baseball game in the Little League playoffs. It was a two game elimination, so they are out of the playoffs. They beat the number one seed team last Monday, but lost their game on Thursday. Today was emotional for the team and the parents.

I have to admit I hear horror stories about Little League-the pouting, the arguing, the tantrums, the fighting... and this is just the adults. I am quite proud to be associated with the kids on my son's team as well as the parents. Everyone, at every single moment maintained their cool, thanked the coaches and officials, cheered each other on, and never, ever stooped to poor sportsman-like behavior.

The other parents would laugh at me for taking so many pictures, to the point where I was self-conscious. That's ok. I have photos, they don't. A'right, a'right, a'right....I take that back. I'll be giving them copies of the pictures I took of their kids. That's my gift to them. I certainly hope they pick up their cameras more often, because in the blink of an eye, these kids are going to be young adults, and they'll wish they had more photos.

Although our team lost more games than they won, I have watched these kids improve their baseball skills ten-fold. I get emotional thinking just how good these kids really are and how much heart they played with. I'm just to damn proud of these kids.

My son got hurt towards the end of the game. (This is not a picture of the injury-this is him scoring in the fifth inning) Coming into home to tie up the game in the top of the 6th, (they only play six innings in this league), the opposing team was throwing the ball to home to get my son out and the catcher missed the ball and the ball bounced off home plate and hit my son in the eye. My heart sank. I didn't even want to look, but I remained calm. I didn't run onto the field, like I wanted to, screaming, "My baby! My baby! Move out of the way! Is my baby ok? Oh my God! Is my baaaayyybbbeeee oooooookaaayyyy?!?!". I let my husband do that.

I did eventually make it onto the field with an ice pack. It broke my heart to see him rolling around on the ground and screaming in pain. I thought for sure he cracked the eye socket, but he didn't. There is a small cut below the eye. We may take him to the hospital to make sure his eye is okay, but his vision is clear now. His vision was blurred a bit for about 10 minutes after it happened.

After the game was over, the kid from the opposing team that threw the ball asked my son if he was ok, and then apologized. I thanked him and told him things like this happen in sports and I really do appreciate the apology.

We suspect my son will be chosen for the all-star team, as well as the coach's daughter. They were both spectacular players and I'm just not ready for Little League to end. I could watch my son play this game that he has fallen in love with everyday. Even though they lost today, I am so proud of the entire team and their huge effort they put into this game. What a great bunch of kids!

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Oh! THAT voice!!

My youngest son, Lewis has this unique voice and I just love to hear him speak. Today while driving home from work, I decided I really wanted to hear his voice. But not just hear his voice, but hear it over the phone. It's a deep, kinda squeeky, raspy voice that has so much expression. I notice how hard he hits some of his syllables when speaking to him on the phone. The infelection and innunciation in his voice make me feel like I'm speaking to a much older person. He has so much personality and such a way with words.

At one point I will have to buy a voice recorder and share his voice with you. It brings a smile to my face all the time. He's such a fun child and cracks me up all the time.

This picture if from almost two years ago. We had and impromptu mini photo session with our box of halloween costumes. He was upset that his brother went to the skateboard park with his buddy and I made Lewis stay home with me. He was less than pleased with me. But he sure did perk up when I pulled out all that stuff.

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Monday, June 06, 2005

Hello 40

As this day approached, I thought I'd start to feel weird, even though I wouldn't admit it. But nothing felt any different until yesterday-the eve of my 40th birthday. I can't even find the words to describe what I was feeling. It's not that I felt bad or sad, maybe just unsure of how I should be feeling, and why I felt the need to "feel" a certain way. Oh well, I'm right where I want to be in life, even a little ahead of schedule, so no complaints from me. I'm going to have a good day and celebrate.

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

Ok, it's time to move

So, we're on our way home from Little League yesterday and it's a beautiful day. We come around the corner and see this:

I swear, I've only seen images like this on the internet. It's bad enough that these people dont keep up their house, but to park a mobile home on the lawn! Come on! WTH??? These people look as though they have no business raising offspring, let alone living without some one to watch out for them. It's like kids raising kids. I'm tellin' ya, we skip this house on Halloween. I'm tired. Tired. Tired. Tired. I mean, not only do we have the grocery cart people (they have a collection in front of their house for my viewing pleasure) and the suspect new neighbors, but we also have the nudists that just did their annual cut down of their weeds in the front yeard last week.

I'm so ready to get out of here it's ridiculous.

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