I'm willing to share small tidbits of me. Who I am. What I experience. Why I do what I do. Just ramdom thoughts from me. Enjoy!
Who?
Name::Random me From::California, United States
I am a wife and mother of two boys. I work full-time in the electronics industry. It took me 6 years to graduate college (no, I'm not embarrassed-I finished, Dammit!) SJSU class of 1990. I love to cook, because I love good food. I'll pass on sweets, but will eat something with garlic or onion in a minute. I HATE cheese, except Mozzerella on pizza-and that has to be combination pizza. I hate chick flicks, but love a good thriller. My husband and I are real estate investors on the side. View my complete profile
I found out that Jacob died today. Jacob's grandmother lives on my court. Jacob has been fighting Leukemia for the past year to 18 months. I had so much hope that he would survive his battle with cancer. I was wrong. Jacob was 11.
About 4 months ago, he went to Stanford Hospital for a transplant of some sort. He seemed so educated on his situation and the medical treatment he was about to get. He said this transplant was some new innovative thing and cord blood was involved. I was so impressed with his breadth of knowledge on what he was about to go through. His cousins, Sabrina and Stephanie would tell he, "Oh, he's doing fine".
I haven't seen his cousins in quite some time and as I pulled into the driveway today after work, Sabrina was across the street from my house on the phone. I made sure to say "hi" to all of the kids. I noticed her shirt had someone's picture on it and immediately, I knew...I knew it was Jacob. I knew it was a dedication to Jacob. I knew he was gone. He died in July. I had no idea.
I asked Sabrina what was on her shirt, just to be sure. As she got closer, I saw his face on her shirt and a birthdate and the date that he left this earth. My heart sank. I stupidly asked, maybe out of partial disbelief, "Jacob died?" and she said "yea". I said "I had no idea. I'm sorry" as my voice quivered and and the tears came and I simply turned and walked away. I didnt want my new found emotion to affect her healing process.
My husband was watching TV when I came inside and I asked him "Did you know Jacob died?" He was shocked and I had to walk away again. It hit him hard. See, my kids generally are not allowed to play out front without supervision. It's a quiet neighborhood and nearly every house has children. My husband doesnt trust the number of teen drivers around here. Understandably so. When I was outside with my kids, Jacob was one of the kids outside playing backetball, riding bikes and scooters with my kids. He was wise beyond his years--an old soul.
We've been missing Jacob around here for quite some time, but now we know he wont be coming back to play. My heart aches for his family, for his friends. I'm ccant even find the words to express how I'm feeling right now.
I spoke to the kids about it. Little Lewis tried to digest the information, but I could tell he didnt quite know how to process it. I was at a loss as to how to make him understand.
Posted by Random me ::
6:33 PM ::
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